Youth was always needed for ladies to gain success in their life. Youth means beauty, fair skin, smooth to the touch, joyful eyes, thick, colored hair. Youth meant marriage, men loved beauty. Youth meant children, healthy able bodies capable of producing sons to fill a happy home. While she was young many years prior, her ambitions kept her from what mattered most. Her father was at fault for that. He was scorned too for the way he raised her. It wasn’t until it was too late that she discovered just how wrong he did her. Young ladies don’t need alchemy lessons. Young ladies don’t need tutors for seven different languages. Young ladies don’t need to be adverse in politics and law. She had no teachers for what she really needed; keeping a balanced home, singing, sewing, being what she was supposed to be. When she was young and foolish, she threw her future to the dogs for an impossible and ridiculous dream. A young lady could never be a doctor. She was lucky to have been able to attend medical school for a singular year.
It took her father’s death benefits to afford that useless year. Now she had no life, all that waited for her was the rivers of the Underworld. By the time she got around to the duties and wants of what she acquired at birth, she was old. A woman in her thirties could surely not produce a child. Her hair started to gain paleness. Her skin, no longer unblemished but now filled with scars and other ghastly features. Her nails broken, her teeth starting to rot away; just like her life. It was by some miracle that she found men who considered wanting to be with her. Reasons she never knew why of course. They all left though for some pretty thing with a full bosom and broad hips for birthing. A stillborn child cannot please a father. A stillborn child can’t do anything but exist in his mother’s guilty and shameful heart. To be young again, to have a chance to make things right would be like finding a tall glass of water in a horrible drought. One can only hope