An "arranged" marriage

these eyes aren't yours
these hands aren't yours

this chest isn't yours
this breath isn't yours

where are you, my love?
why is this not you?
have you left me with him?
is it true?

this feels like an arranged marriage
with the flowers, dress,
priest and carriage

he talks of it all
as if i am already all his
but little does he know
the biggest lie is this

"here i am on this fateful day
ready to give my love away
for one last time
my heart is mine
and on this day
i am supposed to say..."

i do

a shiver runs down my spine
my heart is no longer mine
where were you all this time?
was this mountain too difficult to climb?

was i too much for you?
or did you just not love me too?
because, my dear, with all my heart
i love you

but you are not him
not even one bit
and when i realized this
like a massive wave it hit

please stand up
best friend
object
this wedding is not over yet

save me from this life
this is not for me
my heart has always belonged to you
do you not see?

the most painful tear
runs down my face
as we have our long
final embrace

please take care of my heart
as our paths and our lives part