At times when I feel so alone,
I look out and search for a hand to hold,
I know it is there, but why cant I find it?
Or maybe I don't really want it, knowing there is sacrifises!
I try so hard to call your name, but I'm bound by my own thoughts.
Sometimes I look and wonder ... Is this really for me?
Although I see your children, all wrapped up tight in your arms,
It's me looking in, trying to find the entrance to your heart.
This pain I feel, the regrets I have, the forgiveness I need,
They say you can do it all, but yet, I fail to see how!
So I give it a go, I ask for it all, I ask for you...
But yet, nothing happens, nothing at all!
The pain gets stronger, I become weaker, and the regrets grow bigger.
Why is it just me in this world who cannot feel your love, cannot hear your voice?
You talk to others, you tell them stories, you draw them pictures,
But there I, in the corner, alone, lost, confused, hurt, and still searching!