Floating
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No control.
head swimming
Body floating
Sweat rolls down your face
But you can't wipe it away
You lay face down on the linoleum
All you can hear is a loud buzzing in your head
You want it to stop
all you want to do is to stand and turn off the buzzing
but all you can do is lay there, feeling helpless
Your caught between something you need and something you would die for
Food to nourish your body or a perfect, thin body
But you can;t chose because your drowning in the buzzing.
You want to scream for help
but your mouth wont work
"you did this to yourself!" your head screams
"but just think of how skinny you'll look when you get up"
So you lay there
parallel to ground staring at the ugly, dirty purple
shag rug.
I say Die! if you like or come as close to death as possible. Come as close to desperation and isolation. Find the eye of the storm within yourself, find peace.
Before you can achieve anything you have to take ownership of your life and blame yourself for everything.
One of the strongest statements I've read in my life is that you can't be happy untill you stop doing things because you 'have to' and start doing things because you 'want to'. Keep saying it imagine a mental buzzer going "ERRRRRRRRRR" every time you think that you 'have to' do something to achieve something.
Life is about freedom and choice. Nothing else will ever make you happy.